Brain research (and I'm paraphrasing here) suggests that during this three year period of life, most children are out there ranting and raving on the fringe of rational thought. I'm not so sure what brain research says about the adult that feels most comfortable spending his days with this coming-of-age, puberty-laced crowd. But, here I am. Happy Reading.
Thursday, October 6, 2016
MY AUNT KATHY
Little Jackie Paper had Puff. Puff was a magic dragon. Obviously. Big Bird had Snuffy. Even
one of my daughters had Keeka Keek. Keeka apparently hailed from North Dakota. Her middle
name was Paula. I assumed this middle name helped people differentiate between her first and
oddly similar last names. Comfort. Quiet comfort pulled from thin air. As children, we are
often hesitant to own our actions. Or words. Or complicated emotions. An imaginary friend
can sometimes make for a much softer landing onto new fertile terrain. I never had an imaginary
friend. And it wasn't for lack of imagination. I was a thin, almost shadow-less figure that
easily moved between multiple worlds. I just had no use for an imaginary friend. I had my Aunt
Kathy.
When I was five, my parents were young and struggling. Overwhelmed, mostly. They were
like so many Jack's and Diane's of their time. Just two American kids doing the best that they can.
Sometimes though, the tensions and the screaming crept up to particularly dangerous levels. And in
would swoop Aunt Kathy. Just in time. Always just in time. I'm not sure if she sensed that she was
needed or not, but there she was with an adventure to be had.
As least, they were adventures to me. Aunt Kathy had the ability to turn any errand into the high
seas. Going to the DMV for a 1970's old school car inspection was one. Horned rimmed glasses
and silver tie clips. The smell of hair tonic hanging in the air. The unspoken scent and uniform of
middle management. Dark, frowning faces. It became a game. We would stare back at the
serious DMV crew in an attempt to get someone to smile. I furrowed my brow with as much
sincerity and seriousness that a five-year-old could muster, but to no avail. Aunt Kathy and I
spent the afternoon giggling and having DMV-styled staring contests.
"Hazards, please," I would say sternly.
"Left blinker," Aunt Kathy would respond.
Sometimes our adventures were sort of quasi-adventures. The adventure wasn't necessarily the
activity. The adventure was the vibe. Me and her and other assorted quiet, rag-tag souls once spent
an afternoon at a nearly forgotten cemetery. We had parchment paper and made pencil shaded
replicas of some of the oldest stones. It was a gray October day. The trees were bare. Empty dirt,
mostly. The occasional weed sprouting up between the stones. We took turns spraying whipped
cream into each other's mouths, reading about the deaths of soldiers and young mothers from
decades long gone. Many came close, but couldn't quite hold on to watch the old century change and
spawn up some new days. It all felt so open, so quiet. So free. And now, I'm glad I have no photos
of this. It makes a much richer memory than and staged picture could capture. And that's how it
went.
But just like Little Jackie Paper, we all grow up. We move on. And a kind and gently soul like
my Aunt Kathy? The world just sort of swallowed her up. Too often the world licks its lips and
feasts off the meek and their understated beauty. Bad times. Darker days. Unrest. And me? I left
my childhood as far behind as I could and tried my hand at adult living. Some successes. Some
failures. And there were days when I found myself daydreaming about DMV inspections and
discarded cemetery stones. And with both feet so firmly planted in the adult world, those days began
to feel as it they were somehow just imagined. It's strange sometimes how reality can just feel like
pure imagination as the years smooth out all the edges. Years of what seem like disjointed memories
and moments begin to play back like perfectly written prose. A narrative that you had planned to
write all along. Maybe this is time's kindness to us all.
After years apart, Aunt Kathy and I found each other again. At a time when I needed a little
family, someone who knew me and the boy I once was, there she was. She swooped right in. And
just like all those years ago, I wasn't really sure if she sensed that she was needed or that she just had
uncanny timing. No matter. There she was. Just how I remembered. Quite comfort. And so much
better than even the best imaginary friend.
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Tuesday, July 26, 2016
TO FLIP OR NOT TO FLIP THE BURGER
He just laughed at me. And, to be
fair, it wasn’t the sort of arrogant laughter you get from young teens. He wasn’t looking for the best way to tear me
down. No false bravado to save
face. It was honest laughter. He genuinely thought my question was
funny. He even apologizes.
“I’m sorry, man. I’m not trying to disrespect you. It’s just I haven’t read a book since the
third grade. The girl’s name in the book
was Julie something and she had a funny way of saying things.” Junie B. Jones. That’s the girl. Junie B. Junes is the star of a series of
great books geared towards second graders.
He stands close to six foot, I’m guessing. Looks like he’ll start shaving before the
school year is out and the last book he read was about fifty pages long,
complete with some drawings, and a vocabulary set for an eight-year-old. He’s not alone. I am standing in a remedial reading class for
eighth graders. About twenty-five of
them, all on the cusp of those changes that make us women and men.
“Don’t you find that sad?” I ask.
“Nope.
It hasn’t changed my life. I read
no books and I always make it to the next grade. Every time.”
Scattered nods around the room empathize with
him. A young girl speaks up.
“And because of the budget, they don’t
even have real summer school no more. So
they gonna move you on no matter what.”
This elicits a few high-fives.
The system is clearly being played.
“Who else remembers the last book they
read?” I ask the room. For a room full of kids that have officially
retired from reading, they seem to enjoy talking about their last books. The answers coming from a room full of
thirteen and fourteen years olds are staggering.
“Oh, what is it called? You know, the one with the elephant that
hears the little people inside the flower.”
For those of you keeping score at home, that would be the Dr. Seuss
picture book, “Horton Hears a Who.”
“What’s the one about the greedy little
boy that keeps taking from the tree?”
“Giving Tree!” Somebody shouts. Now, “The Giving Tree” is on my short list of
all-time favorite books, too. And,
technically, it was the last book I read.
Of course, I read it to my five-year-old at bed time. And we spent some time talking about giving
and sacrifice and being kind to others. As
a reader, a writer, and a lover of knowledge and eternal questions that drive
us all, it’s a bit gut wrenching. I’m
getting angry and my anxiety level is rising.
I start to feel like a college professor on the run form a totalitarian regime. In my frustration, I pathetically go full
cliché on them.
“So, do you guys want to flip burgers for
the rest of your lives? It’s fine at
sixteen, but it’s a tough way to make a living at forty.” Many have heard this routine before. Nothing but sighs and eye rolls.
“Why do adults say that? We don’t have to flip burgers. We could work at the mall. It is air conditioned. You dress nice. You get good discounts. You can make commissions.” Yes.
The mall. Ask not what your local
mall can do for you, but rather what you can do for your local mall. A generation answers the courageous call of
retail. I am not knocking retail. I’m definitely not knocking any work. All work has honor. But it was a bitter pill to swallow to hear a
room shrug off education and choose the mall as a safe haven against books and
learning. Statistics are on my
side. College grads make over a million
dollars more over the course of their lifetimes than someone with only a high
school diploma. College grads have lower
unemployment numbers typically, and often enjoy greater job security. Thomas Jefferson was one of the biggest
advocates of an informed and educated electorate. Sadly, Jefferson cannot help me with this
one. I needed to enter the heart of darkness. I needed to entrench myself in the belly of
the beast. I needed to go to the mall.
Two days later, David from JC Penney is
standing in front of my classroom.
Intrigue has filled my students who usually view the school day as a
nuisance. No one is quite sure how to
read him, so we have a small window of silence from which to work. David passes out job applications to
students.
“You have fifteen minutes to fill out your
applications.” The kids are
bewildered. I finally speak up.
“Look, you guys mentioned working at the
mall the other day. David is here to
give you a few tips, maybe some insider secrets. I may not be the one able to help you, but
maybe I can find people who can.” They
seem to like this idea. “And, for the
sake of this lesson, you may put down that you are all high school
graduates. Congratulations and sorry I
wasn’t able to attend the ceremony.”
They seem to like this new mock status even better. You can hear the pencils scratching at the
pages. It’s the most focus I’ve seen all
year with this particular group. Most
are done with time to spare. David
collects papers, studies the first application, and begins.
“This one would never get an
interview. C-U-Z is not a word and I
don’t want you saying CUZ to my customers.
David then lets it fall into the trashcan I have placed to his
left. He continues.
“This one would never get an interview
either. This sentence contains a double
negative and again, I don’t want a person who will represent the store poorly.” Filed again in the trash. Then David chuckles. “My goodness. This one reads like the person
hasn’t read a book in years.” No
lie. Those were his exact words.
The trashcan is pretty full by the end,
but he does have a few he would consider.
The few. The proud. The mall bound. He hands those students a booklet. They grab at it as if it is some sort of
prize. Their faces sour as they flip
through it.
“What is this?”
“A basic aptitude test.”
“Grammar questions?” A girl moans.
“I get a ton of applications so I can
afford to be choosy.” Kids sigh. There is a sense of surrender in the
room. You can feel it in the
silence. And then, for an encore, David
holds up a paper. He is not quite done.
“Even if you do well on the aptitude test,
one of these will surely eliminate you.”
“What is it?”
“It’s an application from a stay at home
mom.” The kids are curious. “See, she went to college. She has real world business experience. She’s been at home raising kids, but now the
kids are in school or grown and she’s looking for something part time. I already know she has a good work
ethic. She is college educated and will
represent my store well. She wins. Hands down.”
“And she don’t even need no job,” one
student laments.
“And she doesn’t even need a job,” David
corrects.
I thank David and the kids say their
muffled goodbyes. It is a dejected
room. Was it cruel? Maybe.
Was it valuable? I believe
so. I believe it would have been far
crueler to never make the point. Will
they forget it? Doubtful.
I call David that night. David isn’t really David. He’s a retired teacher from another
district. He chose JC Penney because it
was the only retail name tag we could find.
“And the line about the application
seeming as if the person hadn’t read a book in years?”
“Brilliant,” I say. He is quite proud of his performance. “Correcting that kid’s grammar right at the
end was probably my favorite part.” We
share a laugh.
“It might not work,” he adds.
“It just needs to work for one kid,” I
say. “That would be success.”
“True.”
He seems to agree.
Later that week, a few more kids are
actually reading. Not all. Not a majority. But more.
At the end of class, I’m collecting some papers.
“That book is pretty good so far,” a kid
tells me.
“I’m glad you like it.”
“Hey, it beats flippin’ burgers, right?”
“Exactly,” I beam.
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Tuesday, June 21, 2016
MY RUSTY ANGEL
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“I don’t know,” I said, trying to find the right words. “He’s like some sort of rusty angel.” And that’s exactly what he was. That’s about as near as I was going to get to
explaining him to someone. He was a
burly guy. Big belly with taut suspenders
circling over its bottom rung. Fat, but
definitely not feeble or week in any sense.
I’m pretty sure the old guy had enough muscle memory and “ornery” in him
to still kick somebody’s ass if necessary.
He often alternated between cigarettes and coffee as if maintaining some
sort of critical chemical balance. I was
fairly certain his teeth were not his own.
I found myself in his kitchen about three afternoons a week, playing
guitar to his daughter. The school
district provides home schooling if a child will be out of the classroom for
more than six weeks. The district also
had a hospital school for kids that required more serious medical attention
during the day. Desiree was too sick,
really too weak, to attend even our hospital school. She was only able to sit upright a few hours
a day. My rusty angel would wheel her
into the kitchen three times a week and I would teach her. Problem is, Desiree is mostly unresponsive. She cannot speak, or grip, or eat, or take
care of herself in any way. Many would
argue that Desiree is not aware, but I strongly disagree. I am well over the thousand mark in terms of
the number of kids I have taught so far, and I have had no greater emotional
connection to a child than the one I had with Desiree.
Obviously, fractions and phonics and earth science were well out of her
reach. About a week in, I stumbled onto
music. Desiree’s eyes go wide and she makes
a passionate noise that suggests that she is singing along. You try to meet every kid where they need you,
and I met Desiree at music armed with my woefully inadequate guitar playing and
singing. My rusty angel would sort of
half listen in. Of course, he was pretty
busy most of the time.
My rusty angel and his wife, were foster parents. They had been foster parents for
decades. Their adult daughter once
explained to me that they were a family that social services could call on in the
middle of the night if they needed to immediately remove a child from a
dangerous situation. Often times, there
was somebody new at the breakfast table when they woke up.
“Kept me grateful. Made me a
better kid. If anybody’s got an arrogant
teenager or a brat, there’s no need for harsh discipline. Become a foster parent. Show them a broader view of the world and it
will straighten them right up.”
And they had a tendency to take the forgotten and neglected among us. In the home, Desiree shared a
medically equipped bedroom with a similar child. In an upstairs room two sisters stayed, both
suffering from a rare skin condition that made their skin extremely tender and
easy to cut. Some days one of them was
bandaged up and down both arms.
“How did you wind up taking these sorts of kids?” I asked one
afternoon. He sighed his way through a
long drag off his Marlboro.
“Simple answer I guess is that even people nobody wants need a place to
go.” Instantly, I was humbled by his
words. By his deeds. By his principles.
By about the sixth month, Desiree had become a quiet critic. When she does not seem to appreciate my
rendition of some classic rock tune, she will show absolutely no response. A quiet and blank stare into nowhere
special.
“Aw, come on,” I protest. “I just
took a rocking classic and reduced it to three chords and a half decent
vocal.” Desiree makes no movement, no
response of any kind. It is just the
sound of her labored breathing. I sigh. And then? There it is. A smirk.
Make no mistake, this allegedly unresponsive kid is totally playing
me. It’s a game, and a dance, and
something akin to art. To connect without the usual ease and benefit of words
is an act of beauty. And love.
“Can you play Folsom Prison Blues?” he asks me. “I heard you do a pretty good Ring of Fire
the other day.”
“Desiree didn’t seem to like it,” I chuckle.
“Well clearly the girl has no musical taste,” he scoffs. “Just like every other teenager today.”
“I know it, but I don’t think I can do it justice.”
“Nah, the songs too good and you ain’t bad enough to break it.” I give it my best attempt. Right away, Desiree is playing me again. But
my angel nods and gives me some applause.
It’s too much for Desiree to bear and she breaks her stoic manner and
howls a bit.
And for about the fiftieth time that day, Charlie zooms through the
kitchen, cackling about something.
Charlie is the latest member of the ensemble. He’s about four and has a fairly severe
deformity along his jaw. It makes talking a difficult task, so his speech is a
bit delayed.
“How did you wind up with Charlie?”
He swigs is coffee, keeping the caffeine and nicotine carefully
balanced.
“Well, I retired officially just a few months ago. Got a good pension and some more time these
days, so I took in Charlie here. He keeps
me on my toes for sure.” I watch Charlie
run across the room again.
“Most people take up golf,” I say.
He nods.
“I know. Isn’t that a shame?” he
asks me. Instantly, I go hollow
inside. Humbled. And all of my mundane problems seem silly to
me. Meaningless. All at once, all of my grumbling, all of my
first world problems and barriers are grist for the mill. At best.
It’s been years since I have seen my rusty angel, but his words come
back to me often. They are like some
kind of karmic whisper pushing me to do the right thing again and again. They are words and ideals I will never live
up to, but they do tend to lead me a little closer to what is good in
myself. My inner demons allow my better
angels the spotlight a few more times along the way. Sometimes I think that maybe it isn’t Karma
or the universe at all. Maybe it’s
him. Maybe he was truly an angel, making
his presence known when I need it most. And,
we all could use an angel now and again.
Even a rusty one.
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
SAY GOODNIGHT, GRACIE
For anyone peering out into the graduation season, this one's for you...
So it’s about
fifteen years ago and the two of us are circling the ice rink with short,
choppy steps. Not a lot of elegance
between us. But, like a Rocky movie, we
are still standing. My preschooler does
not seem to appreciate my great lack of ice skating skill or how badly my feet
and lower back hurt, but she knows that I once ice skated on actual frozen
ponds in New Jersey as a kid and that seems to be enough to impress. To her, I might as well have grown up in
Oz. I was from some sort of elsewhere
and rode an alien-style pod, landing it behind some dry desert brush here in
Southern California and now I walk amongst the natives undetected.
“Tell me about
periods,” she says, each word represented by a tiny puff of cold air. I’m impressed. I look up at the hockey scoreboard and nod,
knowing that the word “period” is clearly not on a usual preschool word
list.
“Well, in hockey
they have three periods. It’s a little
different---“ she cuts me off, annoyed.
“No, tell me about
the period with the blood.” I can’t help
but notice that she seems to give a slight emphasis on the word “blood,” like a
serial killer back from a busy evening. Not
quite what I had in mind.
“Well, I have
never had a period. You should probably
ask your mother.” Surely, my ignorance
gets me off the hook.
“But, I don’t want
to know her answer. I want to know your
answer.” I’ll spare you my botched
dissertation on the menstrual cycle.
Honestly, I thought we were heading into hockey.
Around the same
time, we use to listen to old radio shows on some satellite channel while she
took a bath. “Burns and Allen” came
up.
“Hey! Her name is Gracie! Why haven’t you told me about this
Gracie? I’m the only Gracie I know.”
“Isn’t there a
Gracie at daycare?”
“No, I make the
kids call her Other Gracie, so I’m still the only Gracie,” she explains with
absolutely no shame. “And this is a
famous Gracie!” She listens intently,
very pleased each time Gracie Allen gets a laugh.
“Do you know about
this Gracie?” My mother was a huge fan,
so luckily I do know more than the average guy.
That night at bedtime we end the day with the show’s closing catchphrase.
“Say Goodnight, Gracie.”
“Goodnight
Gracie,” she says, giggling at the joke.
And for the next few days all she wants to know about are old shows from
radio and television. Naturally, I steer
her towards The Three Stooges. Not the
best choice for someone who hasn’t broken into kindergarten yet, but I felt it
was worth the risk. I’ve got all kinds
of information for her. Of course I
do. I’m the answer man.
And this is how it
has gone. I’m the answer man. For better or worse. I think my love of telling stories and having
stockpiled away years of useless information gave Gracie the impression that I
knew far more than I did. No
matter. I savored the role. Probably a bit more Cliff Clavin from Cheers
than actual master of knowledge.
“What’s the
economy?”
“Why don’t
airplanes just fall out of the sky?”
“Why doesn’t
Grandma believe in evolution?”
And to my credit,
I have tried not to say what I did not know.
My credibility seemed to grow by saying, “I don’t know. Let’s find out.”
Like I said, I
have truly loved being the guy for answers.
It has been a good run. But, I
must prepare for the next phase. As
Gracie heads off to college, I can’t be the answer man anymore. My college experiences? They were all pre internet. Can’t be the answer guy for a lot of
that. And soon, I won’t understand the
current job market. It won’t be my job
market. It will be hers. Retirement is still a bit down the road, but
it has become a tangible entity, perched in the distance.
Now, this is where
people my age become cranky and cantankerous.
We do not embrace our new roles.
Sometimes we insist we know more because we have more years. But, many of those experiences have
expired. They are no longer a source of
vital information. My role, our roles,
are changing. Embrace it. We may have fewer and fewer immediate
answers, but we will have something better.
We will have wisdom. Our front
porches and our favorite chairs will become our mountain tops and if we have raised
them right, they will return for our wisdom.
How to handle
heartache and pain and loss? Those
answers don’t seem to expire and never seem to change. Which battles to choose and when to hold tightly
to your principles? Where else will they
go for that? We will become the keepers
of wisdom. And that’s good work if you
can get it. Who knows every single
person they had to be in order to become the person they are right now? Who knows all of their layers? That would be you. And your wisdom. And who will be the keeper of their
childhoods while they charge into adulthood?
Again. You. You and your full, swollen heart.
I get a bit of a
reprieve this summer. We will be working
together at the local community college.
I will get to be the answer man for eight extra weeks. What a gift.
And when the summer ends, the shift will begin. So Gracie if you find yourself reading this,
know that your childhood was one of the absolute greatest gifts life has given
me. I can never thank you enough. As you roll into adulthood, know that I will
be right where you left me. And, I will
be happily waiting for my new role in your life. Obviously, this isn’t a goodbye. It’s just a sunset of sorts. Maybe more of a goodnight. So? Say
goodnight, Gracie.
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Thursday, March 31, 2016
DAVID BOWIE'S SECRET PORTAL
This conversation happened about two weeks before Bowie's death. It's been sitting in my notebook for a few months. Here you have it...
I’ve never truly
attempted to get my fourteen year old to abandon her music; the collective
music pulsating its way through a generation.
Trust me, as an old vinyl hoarder that once scoffed and shunned the
woeful lack of authenticity that the cassette offered up, I deeply appreciate
how these three and four minute vignettes will forever mark your life and take
you to a place where you were once eighteen and invincible. Forever young. Forever fearless. Forever the best version of yourself. Truth be told, it was never the best you, but
sentimentality cradles these versions in some false esteem.
Sadly, to cling
only to the music of your youth is awful.
We too easily assume that this music represents us. Not really.
I mean, I don’t smile when I hear Culture Club at the dentist’s office
because Boy George was a musical genius.
I smile because it takes me back to a Saturday car ride to Wildwood New
Jersey, tanked on testosterone and hope and youth. It was
a great day. So thank you Culture Club
for bookmarking the moment for me, but it takes a certain depth to appreciate
art, literature, and music that was never directly marketed to you and your
peers. As much as you love the music of
your day, it’s less about you and more about them…and then. This other stuff we pick up on our own? These strange sounds and words from
generations before? This is the stuff
that truly pulls you in. This is the
stuff that is much more uniquely you.
Those low, lonely tones of a Sinatra ballad? The first time I heard Nina Simone sigh about
being “In the Dark?” And the epiphany
that came with hearing Dylan snarl about being a Rolling Stone? Those are me.
Hall and Oates are fun, but just the soundtrack to a great run years
ago.
All this brings me
to the car radio wars. On a longer car
ride, there is only so much Drake I can listen to before I find myself
angry. And this Drake fellow seems like
a reasonably nice guy as far as celebrities go, but a handful of today’s hits
and I feel the need to punch someone.
When we talk about road rage, it is very possible that a high percentage
of road rage has to do with middle-aged men being subjected to the musical
trends of the day. I’m pretty certain
that when two guys get out of their cars and throw it down, much like listening
to a shell closely, you can hear Drake and Nicki’s names muttered in the
fray. To be fair, it is possible that
many teens practically jump out of the car about a half mile from the school
because they really don’t care about The Beatles vs. The Stones. So there you have it. The mind-numbing paradox of the radio
wars. Until this.
My fourteen year old and I decide to play a
game. Using Apple Music, we take
turns. One song from her Apple
Music. One from mine. And you have to explain why you like the
song. A little like Show-And-Tell. I know she would love to visit New York, so I
start with Billy Joel’s “New York State of Mind.” I get to tell about my small, but eternal
moment of buying bagels at dawn while walking through Greenwich Village coming
home from a party. And this song came
over a tiny transistor radio dangling from the top of an all-night
newsstand. She asks questions about
9/11. We talk a little politics, middle-east
policy, and where I was when I heard about the towers falling.
Her turn. I listen to a Lana Del Rey song. Voice is a bit haunting. Not bad at all.
“I like how the
mellow beat goes against the lyrics,” she tells me.
Back to me. I go with Paul Simon’s “Loves Me Like a
Rock.” She laughs.
“Why a rock? Is his mom stupid?” I talk about the rock as a metaphor for
strength, rather than stupidity. I turn
a bit biblical and discuss the Rock of Gibraltar. So far, we’ve discussed politics, history, and
the Bible, but it doesn’t feel like it to her.
We’re just listening to some tunes.
Her turn. “Have you ever heard this guy? It’s pretty old.” The car is flooded with the opening sax from
Bowie’s “Young American.”
“I owned this
album!” I squeal. And yes, it was
literally a squeal. She returns my
squeal.
“Oh My God! I love
this guy,” she says, a bit excited. We
very quickly agree that “Rebel, Rebel” is the best song to sing into a mirror. Anybody is immediately a rock star when you
sing that one. The game sort of ends and
we just let her Bowie collection play.
“Modern Love?” She concludes that
the catch phrase is ironic. The love in
the song is really about a great lack of love and connection with other
people.
We start to turn off
the freeway. It’s one of the few times I
wish there had been more traffic. We
both belt out “Heroes.” I’m pretty sure
I’m off key, but I get credit for passion.
I’m all in. So is she. Pulling into the driveway, there is so much
more to talk about. Bowie has opened up
a portal to Kerouac, Miles Davis, Iggy Pop, angst, and all the rest. But it will just have to wait. It’s okay, though. The portal is open. And for now, for us two Young Americans,
that’s enough.
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